paroxysm
I think the writer in me is experiencing a manic phase.
Yeah, sometimes when the words whip into a frenzy in my head, I am stimulated into a semi-deranged state. Writing has recurrently become like that - an ardent focus on the fervor of words charging from my mind. It's like an avoidance reaction to everything else in my life, but rendered as a disorder of the artistic kind. It's my stream of creative thought with this machine and keypad to convey and transform the flow into written passages.
Sure, there's the ineludible comedown - the descent into fatigue. When I've released and I'm spent. When I drop back on the couch, or tumble into my bed, and drift off into dream.
How do I write? Yes, I've been asked that question. It's a direct query with an obfuscated answer. Writing, for me, is a private endeavor. I'm not entirely certain anyone has ever witnessed me "in the moment." I am not opposed to someone watching me, because I have not experienced that, and it might be interesting to see how I react to company, and how that company reacts to me in my manic writer's state. If someone else was watching this private ritual they would see the shift in expression, like orgasm as the word comes. That's not an intentionally evasive or ambiguous answer. It also not meant to seem patently sexual, but the process can be libidinous, frenzied, and consuming. It's just the only way I know how to honestly respond.
My ideas on writing? It's serious. Born into it. Light a candle. Pour a drink. Put on music, sometimes. Focus into intensity.
Reach inside and expose the thoughts kept hidden during the hours spent adrift in the "normal" world. Yes, these thoughts are usually kept hidden because they don't fit in with the day-to-day rites of the office realm or the working life, but they're in the mind - a constant, unquestionable presence. Reveal those dark little parts of the heart no one else sees except through the writer's words. Edit and rewrite - and do not censor. Abject honesty in personal literary writing is pivotal. Unmask and reveal. Let the reader wonder from where these thoughts and ideas emanate. And let the reader find the beauty and the darkness and the joys in the words connected and shaped into something as real as you.
Yeah, sometimes when the words whip into a frenzy in my head, I am stimulated into a semi-deranged state. Writing has recurrently become like that - an ardent focus on the fervor of words charging from my mind. It's like an avoidance reaction to everything else in my life, but rendered as a disorder of the artistic kind. It's my stream of creative thought with this machine and keypad to convey and transform the flow into written passages.
Sure, there's the ineludible comedown - the descent into fatigue. When I've released and I'm spent. When I drop back on the couch, or tumble into my bed, and drift off into dream.
How do I write? Yes, I've been asked that question. It's a direct query with an obfuscated answer. Writing, for me, is a private endeavor. I'm not entirely certain anyone has ever witnessed me "in the moment." I am not opposed to someone watching me, because I have not experienced that, and it might be interesting to see how I react to company, and how that company reacts to me in my manic writer's state. If someone else was watching this private ritual they would see the shift in expression, like orgasm as the word comes. That's not an intentionally evasive or ambiguous answer. It also not meant to seem patently sexual, but the process can be libidinous, frenzied, and consuming. It's just the only way I know how to honestly respond.
My ideas on writing? It's serious. Born into it. Light a candle. Pour a drink. Put on music, sometimes. Focus into intensity.
Reach inside and expose the thoughts kept hidden during the hours spent adrift in the "normal" world. Yes, these thoughts are usually kept hidden because they don't fit in with the day-to-day rites of the office realm or the working life, but they're in the mind - a constant, unquestionable presence. Reveal those dark little parts of the heart no one else sees except through the writer's words. Edit and rewrite - and do not censor. Abject honesty in personal literary writing is pivotal. Unmask and reveal. Let the reader wonder from where these thoughts and ideas emanate. And let the reader find the beauty and the darkness and the joys in the words connected and shaped into something as real as you.
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